Sunday, April 15, 2012

four ends of limerence


1.
after a hard day’s riding my t-shirt smells of sweat and caked mud dried
it was fresh and clean when you wore it before we eventually slept last night
it seems so long ago so far away and i wonder what you’ll do with the one i left behind
would you wear it sometime to remember me or would you forget that it was mine
maybe you’ll wrap it up in a plastic bag and put it at the back of the shoe closet
a keepsake for the times spent a reminder of this summer when we met



2.
the paver blocks fly up to meet the sharp lines of falling rain
as solitude walks drenched hunched over head down eyes burning with pain
dragging longing by the hair leaving a smear of blood to be washed into the puddles
while ryuk the shinigami watches amused from the rooftops  munching on a blood-red apple
and i walk away wicked smile and crazy hair having scribbled longing in my deathnote
because i cannot stand it when upon someone i begin to dote



3.
you come back disillusioned disaffected
the careless look of the romantic young traveller perfected
toasted brown from a sun too hot dirty feet and hair that smell of smoke and dust and sweat
you return with more questions than answers and vague tales of things you did and people you met 
but it’s impossible to not see the gaping hole instead of the self-generated self-worth you sought
but i figured something while you were away. the plug you seek is something i’m not



4.
someday the bed’ll be too narrow for the two of us
your hair in my face might bother me and you won’t make such a fuss
over the pain in my intercostals. actually the pain too will be gone before long
someday it’ll be just too irksome to steal into your room and leave before dawn
not everything i say will make you laugh or even make you smile
and kisses won’t suffice when we run out of vodka at night



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