Friday, August 31, 2012

prior engagement



a damned demanding mistress
thriving on my distress
she knows how to draw me out
on cool lonely nights like these
she asks me what i think about
as i stare at the distant lights
stoking the ember in my hand
seducing me with whispered rhyme
she slowly creeps into my mind
telling me she’ll understand

and so we get to talking this way
of how your ribs feel in my embrace
of the bite marks you left on my chest
or how caressing my shoulders you reach for my neck
how having made love we go to sleep
on the large bed holding each other tight
only to wake up again
and reach for each other in the middle of the night

i guess i could well talk instead
of how the room brightens up when you walk in the door
or how it’s a pleasure to see you do the simplest chores
like ironing your sari the night before
hands flying as you expertly handle both
the iron and the cigarette
blowing smoke out the side of your mouth
tucking your hair behind the ear once more

but i can’t just get away with bright blue days
and sunny mornings on the hillside spent picking flowers
i must come to the pungent smell of crushed grass
that stained our elbows and our knees
the peach blossoms in your hair
the rumpled pillow of my jeans

the mad laughter
and the frantic search for a pin after
for where the sleeve of your dress tore
it takes a lot to engage her and i can’t
get away listing things about you i adore

 i must talk of how with your eyes shut you gasp
every time i enter you
for the rest  is too passé
no, the other won’t do
for  she’s far too exacting and easily bored
and though i may be honest to you
to my poetry i’m still a whore

Saturday, August 11, 2012

exceptions


you can see people or be seeing them
you can  sleep with someone or with them go to sleep
so though as i rule i never write for people
i wrote a poem for you to read

Friday, August 10, 2012

never too late


why do you use a pencil, the old man i once asked
for pencils are ephemeral, the writing won’t last
i want time to take them, what i write now, these lines
for you see, you with the matted hair, these are hurtful times

that was until he woke up in the middle of the night
and realized that he’s an artist still
the chair, the empty wine bottle, the dirty
sneakers in the corner were suddenly all grist to the mill

and now he uses indelible ink
for moments he says pass in the blink
of an eye and we
have only so much time
on our hands to make the most of our lives
ephemeral as can be

Thursday, August 9, 2012

monk in vain


thought i’d be a monk instead
but i guess i’m far too vain
couldn’t look beyond, even when i shaved my head
beyond the mirror on the window pane


Wednesday, August 8, 2012

just another night out


they step out for a smoke and they talk gaily
his knee’s about six inches from hers
there’s tangible tension that the proximity incurs
as they stand leaning against the railing

they laugh a lot and smile too much
and they’re just a tad too polite as such
for people out drinking together and i’d bet
that they’re probably not seeing each other yet

back inside her hand stays on his shoulder too long
he’s staring at her lips, coming on too strong
as she throws her head back at his jokes lame
which she doesn’t care to understand, it’s all the same

to her. it’s just good to feel wanted she thinks
someone to talk to, to share a drink with
someone to hold you at the end of the day
just for the night, who cares then if they go away

when i’m down in the dumps of my mind’s cesspool bog
i too wish i had someone to help me keep together
now i see them leave together, t’night they’ll probably sleep together
while i’m sitting here on the steps petting the dog


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

you see that orange glow?


now you see how i’m burning
don’t you?
as you see the smoke risin’
far away above the horizon
but don’t, my dear, imagine for even a moment
that you may be the cause for my torment
or that it’s for you that i am yearning

you went about picking ideas and ideals
making them your own like the thief who steals
easily seduced in the dark, overwhelmed, overawed
deceived by pretenses, taken in by fraud
i always did think you should’ve been more discerning

you wanted to learn and grow
you said and so you had to go
and yet you’ve held on to the things
that held you back like puppet strings
so tell me, what is it that you’ve since been learning?

all you did get rid of was me
i warned you that it was but a smokescreen
do you now see the smoke rising far above the trees
do you hear this hollow howl that pours forth in the breeze
but don’t worry, this silent scream too shall end
once my heart is pulp and my throat is rent
and i’ll forget what the pain was concerning

you remember how you wanted
your moments perfect; always a sucker for happy endings
no, i don’t feel vindicated, for it’s not a stand that i am defending
i’m just spewing verse, it’s not a message that i am sending
even volcanoes die, i’m just an erupting mess
for the wheels of time, they’re relentless
and they’re gonna go on and on a-turning

but for now do you see how i’m burning
and yet don’t even for a moment imagine
that it’s for you that i am yearning