Tuesday, July 29, 2014

lies, all


"i feel neither hurt nor regret
 my nostalgia is without algia
 and i’m never beset
 by jealousy or the fear of growing old"
 with fingers frozen numb, she said
"and my hands are never cold"



Saturday, July 26, 2014

matters of the heart


a minor infarction in the left of the heart sent him
back on the ventilator and the dialysis machine
it’s always hard to say at his age, so
his chances are slim
and then it’s a matter of the heart

but she’ll pay her way
keep him like that for another day
life support may only seem to prolong his agony
but how can she ask it to be denied him?
it is after all, a matter of the heart



Wednesday, July 23, 2014

3/5


the fifth night we were on the same bed
that fifth night, i think
we hardly ever slept

the third night we tried to sleep side by side
through the bumpy ride
your feet tucked under my thigh

that first night you saw me sleep alone in my sleeping bag
with my hands folded on my chest
like a mummy you thought, dead



Sunday, July 20, 2014

on love ll


as in kite-flying
the one who lasts
is the one with the string
steeped in broken glass



Thursday, July 17, 2014

a year ago, in bangalore


i cycle past cows munching on rotting marigold garlands
in the garbage dump
it is time taken off to paint though not a single thing is made
apparently i am in a slump

it rains and the streetlights all become shower-heads
where the termites come to die
i see an owlet on the wires and write a poem about it
i’m told it made someone cry

i wake up thinking i’m in your bed, posters of pearl jam in my head
and somehow, quang duc, the vietnamese monk
you invite me to the party and i make a fool of myself
it seems i got really drunk



Monday, July 14, 2014

memories of a winter evening walk


the setting sun glows orange reflected
amongst the green shoots of the watered wheat
watered for the first time at about three weeks
and waterlogged for the first time in months it’s a feast
that’s attracted a dozen egrets pacing the skewed square
criss-crossing each other with measured strides as a pair
of lapwings watch from the embankment and a couple
of kingfishers one on a wire and the other on a supple
low branch on which to beat whatever is caught dead
sit bobbing eagerly now their tail and now their head
even some pigeons and doves and some noisy parakeets
scour the nearby grassy paths for something to eat
having been attracted to the spot by what looked like a treat
a scraggly mongrel ready any moment to beat a hasty retreat
approaches an ibis who comes probing the fields before it
and ignoring the dog carries on earnestly with its wings folded
behind its back. the mongrel thus disregarded goes
back to looking for rats flushed out of their burrows
and a pair of starlings - passing migrants, they’re early – groom
sitting close together on the neem by the overgrown tubewell room
with wet-mud-socks the collared resident now comes by on his rounds
and freezes at the sight of the trespasser with his nose in the ground
then silently rushes forward empowered by righteous anger
to maul to crush to take down the insolent intruder
the pond heron that’s been staring motionless and wide-eyed
now suddenly comes to life in a brilliant flash of white
and the poor mendicant alerted just in time to the attack
barely has time to take in the barbed furball as he looks back
but takes to his heels tail tucked without a moment’s hesitation
which seeing the ferocity of the chase was a wise decision
and thus he’s chased past the lapwings - who circle cursing after
them - and over embankments with much splashing of water
right across the sun’s reflection that’s now a shimmering band
all the way to the refuge of the distant sugarcane stand



Friday, July 11, 2014

an ‘armless little miss-you note


the grass is baked a pale brittle metallic hue
the soil is cracked, flying up in dust
come now, a downpour
is it too much to ask for?


Tuesday, July 8, 2014

an innocuous power-cut

the young delinquent
since his smoking became more frequent
added to the late night excursion on the terrace
a pre-bath smoke before the mirrors
trusting the efficiency of the exhaust fan as well
as the rich aroma of the new shower gel
but then one evening his luck ran out
there was a rather untimely black-out
and in the dank smoky darkness sank
in the realization that the exhaust fan
was not connected to the inverter battery back-up
they wouldn’t open, the windows were stuck
the smoke mixed with the shower gel
gave rise to a smell you just couldn’t quell
and just then his mum began to shout
calling him for dinner without
his mind was blank, what excuse?
that was when all hell broke loose


Saturday, July 5, 2014

with a shrug


i’m going back to the chequered hills
steeped in vendettas
that’s where my heart finds peace
amongst the pale poinsettas


Tuesday, July 1, 2014

piss off


forgive me
if i find your righteous anger moronic
it’s just an honest opinion, i’m not trying to sound sardonic
when i say that i find your rhetoric too lame

we’re all entitled to our sentiments
however dim-witted they happen to be
so i see why you get so worked up but forgive me if i fail to see
how you're so sure about who’s to blame

and trust me
you want to leave me out of this coz if i lose it and decide to go
on a rampage, you never know
whom i’ll leave mutilated and maimed